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Friday, April 18th, 2008
9:38 am	shotgun wedding And no, I am not pregnant. May 24th at 6:30 Como Park Conservatory; outdoors at the Japaneese garden Patio reception? (expensive; might be somewhere else) I really need to call jenell. She had a really good park wedding, and i should get advice from her... This isn't booked. It is just open. I looked at things. I showed eric. He said call. So I did, although I thought it was really far fetched. And they have a saturday open, a week before we leave. Eric's parent's randomly have that weekend off, and so does his sister and her husband. How random is that? I need to call my parents...however it is 2 am in WI. If he is not on call, that might be a deal breaker. Why? *) I kind of like the idea of being married when we start our travels. *) People will understand the value of our relationship-the marriage lisence speaks for itself. *) our 'honeymoon' is already arranged *) We can go to saudi, or other conservative countries with significantly less trouble/disapproval. *) That is still over a month away; doable. I have two more weeks off without a job. I can get details organized in two weeks, with 3 weeks in country to work out the last minute details. the invites would be the most important thing-or getting people to clear their schedules. It is still a month off-that is a decent amount of notice for any other planning thing. I should do postcards as invites. It would be unique, plus doable from here. *) hmm.... *) I like this idea. There is an attractive outdoor wedding venue open (which is usually booked). *) Two friends' dads are pastors...i wonder if one of them would be available? *) Between eric and i, we know 3 possible photographers-emily (1st choice), his coworker, and one of mine. We were discussing when she could visit mpls anyway...what better chance? *)I don't know why i liked the idea of being officially married before we left. I just did. Although i did not imagine doing something this quickly. From this far away. I haven't seen the place from the inside; it is supposed to be pretty. My parents, ironically enough, have been inside. i was walking eva around outside. i know the general vicinity-just not inside. it would make applying for engineers/nurses without borders easier. The peace corps, i believe, won't place you together unless you are married. In the middle east, it is illegal for women to converse with men they are not married to. touching...definitely not legal. At our relatinship status now, I would get jailed if i went to the middle east. Or stoned. I think that is actually possible. Pretty sure. We would scew something up; talk, touch, kiss. He would be fine; i would have trouble. I would love to go to the middle east though. Talk about a cultural headspin. I would take just a short trip to see it. ok, I am on a tangent. ARE YOU FREE FOR THAT DAY? Is this crazy and too rushed??? Fortunately, we started a savings account 2 years ago. We wrote down our financial goals for the next five years, and started socking money into a savings accound. A wedding was on that list. So, thankfully, money isn't a problem. (That and i am cheap, so it won't be a $20,000 wedding.) Secondly, i think i am in decent shape: I don't need to go on a crash wedding diet. Like any other breathing girl in the US, I would love to lose a couple pounds. If I lose it great-i would love to weigh 115 again. Thankfully, it's not a big deal, since i am quite happy with my 120 anyway, so I don't think this is an issue either. Flowers would not be a problem:this place is an outdoor garden. :) Problems: will people be able to make it??? Will i be able to pull off a good wedding in this short a time frame??? I would like a cheaper reception hall. The one that is avail is a bit expensive...5,000 (for the night, food, and drinks). Gifts are also a problem. We will be living in a suitcase: we don't need much/anything. The LAST thing we need is a great big pile of shit that needs to get stored at someone's house... oh boy. Can we ask for monetary gifts? Is that ok?? One benefit of getting married when we get back is that we can actually compose a gift registry with things for a house. What about home depot gift cards??? We could ask for that!! Do they expire?? Seriously:we do not need stuff! The gift card list-target, trader joe's grocery store, rei, home depot, might actually not be a bad idea. Then when we get home, we can use them. They would store well in a small envelope. that is actually a good solution... if there is alcohol, free food,and lots of happy people with time off and a reason to party, isn't it by default already a good time? Reception halls in minneapolis that allow catering? ANY IDEAS???? and alcohol. Do i need someone with a liquor liscence?? CAN I BRING IT???? Or am i going to get in trouble? HELP!! ANY MINNAPOLIS RECEPTION HALL IDEAS??? *if it is my wedding i get to to what i like right?? Like order several monster subs from subway??? i love sandwhiches. do you think the village wok would make a big vat of sweet and sour chicken, fried rice, fried vegtables, wontons...etc? Those are probably my two favorite restaurants. Does dairy queen do wedding ice cream cakes?? I never really liked the standard sponge things...i would rather have a giant, 3 tier, chocolate brownie. Why do people like cake anyway??? Angel food cake is an exception...that tastes okay. and is healthier. aarrrhhhgh! okay. Those are details. Any good ideas for reception halls???? that should be the frist step. not the wedding venue, but the party place for later. I NEED IDEAS!! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 16th, 2008
12:27 pm	the house that jen built I am not trying to settle down, but sometimes it is fun to think of the dream house. What would i like in the house that I am too broke to and don't want to buy... The BATHROOM is going to be awesome. It will have a tropical theme to it. There will be brown tiles on the floor, and the walls will be painted light blue. There will be a hot tub. it won't be a monstrous one, but it will be there. That will be in the back corner. The hot tub will be right against the wall and there will be a ledge (6-9 inches maybe) between the hot tub and the wall. This ledge will be the home to several large hibiscus plants-each with different colored flowers, a large corn plant, small orange trees, and whatever other attractive tropical plants I can find. there will be a small shower stall in the back corner opposite the hot tub. The sink and toilet will be along the same wall as the shower. The other wall, by the hot tub, will have large mirrors. I like the way they make a room look bigger. The ROOF: will have solar panels. Depending on city code and location, eric wants to put up a windmill. I don't know about that, but I am not going to stop him. I have no problems with a windmill. The yard: will be big. that is almost more important than the size of the house. And I am looking forward to landscaping. The yard itself has to have a large open area. At least one corner of the yard will be my own little forest. I have two hammocks right now, and nowhere to hang them. I will change that. The trees that I plant will be fruit bearing-apple, cherry, ??,??. If i have enough space for a mini fish pond, great. Or a fountain..something. There will be a large compost tumbler. I already miss the worm bin that i had. I really like bush fencing. I think it is attractive. Our front yard will be surrounded by trimmed bushes. Our back yard should probably have a wooden fence-for the dogs. Eva + one great dane or one border collie. Eric wants 5 kids and no more than 2 dogs at one time. I would rather have 3 dogs and 2-3 kids. We have plenty of time to bicker that one out. We should definitly have a big yard though. Eric wants to build a tree house as well. That sounds good to me. That will go in another corner-not the one by my peaceful fishpond and 'forest.' That corner will also be filled with random trees. Another corner will be a standard garden-with homegrown groceries. And the last corner, by the house will be a fire pit. I am going to need help building that one; probably from artistic Emily. It is going to be a stone mosaic (stones and garden wood chips will come from the recycling center, of course) in the shape of a square patio. The center will be a sun with rays, only the hole for the firepit will be the center of the sun. It will have a wire top, like any standard charcoal grill. That might take a lot of work, and i am not quite sure of how to make it happen. I have 2 artist friends though...so it should be doable. I like the idea of having grape vines...i will find a place to put them. One fence or another will be a good home for grape vines. The yard itself does not need to look like a golf course either. The house itself will be small. Kids can share rooms. I don't want a house that buy's me; one so big that all I do is work to pay for it. Eric, thankfully, agrees. it will be small. The kitchen will have a dishwasher and one of those flat top stoves. The grooves on a stove top always need cleaning, and that is just annoying. The stove will have one of those fancy automatic timers. As for size, I just need enough room to cook. There will be a dining room, and a living room, also of modest size. The bedrooms will be modest, but they will be decently sized enough to accomdate 2 per room. There will be a small second bathroom with a toilet, shower stall, and sink. Heck if anyone is coming in the other bathroom to poop when i am in the hot tub!! There will be a computer room, and then the basement. The basement will be full of games and other sporting equipment. Air hockey table, dart board, rock climbing gear, skis, snowboards, soccer ball, baseball gear, hockey gear, camping gear, volleybal net and the myraid of other shit eric and i have accumulated already WITHOUT kids. We had an entire closet full of sports stuff in mpls. Casey can vouch for this. And we were considering buying surfboards. The amount of sports shit that we have is almost sad. Between the two of us, I think we have 11 helmets. i don't know if that is cool or sad. The garage: Eric built his dad a ball-return putting green for his birthday. The think looked great and worked great. It was actually impressive. And so was the amount of sawdust I was sweeping for WEEKS!! HE NEEDS a garage. Or i will lose it. i hope his dad uses that putting green. Anyway. On the outside of the garage, there will be a yak-rack; a shelf for our kayaks. And later, we will get a canoe. (you can't put Eva in the center of the kayak.) Do you think i can find this house, or will we have to build it?? This is the dream house, irrelevant of price tag. The more i write, i think the higher that tag goes. Maybe just buy the house, throw a house warming party, and cross my fingers that I get some good cards to Home depot! But I like this idea, and i like the idea of making it work. i am sure it will go up slowly, bit by bit. But with the right amount of planning, and the right group of helpful friends, it could be done. We talked about a rock climbing wall, but i am not sure of where that would go. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
12:11 pm	It is nearing the end of my stay in the uk, and i think back and wondered what i did. Eric has been working a lot, but i ahve had the whole time off. What did i do anyway? i don't think i realized how sleep deprived i was when I left. The first week I got here, I slept in until 11am, or beyond, for FOUR days out of the week. And i went to bed at a normal hour (10-11; not 3 am) every single night and never had a problem falling asleep. how could i have slept that much??? The week before i left was busy; I can see how I arrived tired. I had one day off during my last week in mpls, used that day to pack, worked every other day +2 16 hour shifts back to back (sat and sunday)! I went home, unpacked, did the family rounds, found (or thought i did at the time) all my tax papers, and reshuffled things for england. And then left the following day. Leaving from the us to london is a six hour flight, and the UK is 6 hours ahead of the US. This means you get about 4 hours of sleep on the plane, and you are up for the day. I found a gym when i got here, figuring I had no excuse for skipping a workout when I had nothing else to do all day. I finally started chipping away at the 300 emails that had and were accumulating as well. I am usually not very good with email, and can go months at a time without looking at it. Other than that, i have been the trip organizer, laundry girl, and secretary. Taxes took a while since i forgot my w2 and had to re-obtain it, nor did i know what half of the forms were. Another thing to note, for whomever is out of the country, apparantly not all bank accounts are accessible when you are abraod. It's a security thing. Which unfortunately makes it difficult to get the interest statements. Minus the Venice weekend, I am also the trip planner. And it has been so nice to catch up on a lot of reading. And that is really all i have been up to. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, December 15th, 2006
12:03 pm	Itchy feet I love ice cream... the chocolate kind with the fudge and the pb chunks and caramel swirls... that is good stuff. The summer heat wave got me started on ice cream, and now i eat it several times a week. I could actually go for a second cup of it right now... hmm... i like ice cream. I have a 3 day weekend, which feels really good. The last weekend I had off, I was good and sick, nailed with whatever norwok or norwa or that whatever virus. A wonderful weekend full of vomiting and diarrhea. ick. So today's agenda is full of xmas gifts, the dog park, the gym, and supercleaning. I don't know how we always wind up with supercleaning to do... i suppose, the laundry builds up all week and needs to be done, the dishes pile up, dust and dog hair accumulate... I don't want a big house, ever. It would just fill up with shit, and be more surface area to clean. I want a NICE house, but you can have a little, nice house. I want a big yard though. A big yard with open space, lots of trees, an attractive fence, a fire pit.... but not a big house. Some people sock all their money into their houses-it's ridiculous! They buy one expensive thing after another to fill the huge house with five bedrooms and 3 bathroom with a whole bunch of shit, live paycheck to paycheck... That makes no sense. I want to travel. simple house, with simple things. An awesome yard to spend most of our time in. Travel the world. Show our kids the world. DO things, not BUY things. Skis vs. video games. Travel vs. Vacation. Rock climbing, not cruises. Yup. Speaking of travel, it is time to fly agian, I think. This time it is Texas. Next sounds like belgium. Both trips need to be organized and rigged. I complain cuz i usually do the trip planning and was about to sit down and take a good look at this, but at the same time, I really like to travel. I looks like it might be pretty cheap to fly to london, and peharps then we will fly to belgium from london. I don't know. Europe is so damn expensive though once you get there. Ugh. Seattle, a place where I would love to live, is totally getting hit with a storm right now. Ironically enough, I remember thinking it was awesome that seattle was on the pacific since the pacific coast of the US never seems to get hit with hurricaines. foot in mouth... it's not a hurricaine technically, but its pretty damn close. Although, as an ortho nurse, I am sure I would have employment now... accidents-->truama-->patients. Money, money, money, money. I want to cut down on my 401k savings so I can travel more now... i don't know if that is a good idea. I need to think about that. I really like that idea. Maybe I should wait until i do my taxes and then try to figure it out... I don't like my new job at the clinic. It is nice sometimes because it is work in a non stressful environment, relaxing, and I use Spanish. It is so low-key that I have actually worn HEELS to work as a nurse! What a joke. The bad is some days I can almost feel my brain cells dying, and I have noticed a paycut in my checks. It is actually a fairly decent paycut-one I wasn't expecting of 1-200/paycheck. I think I know why. I used to pick up shifts to get 40 hrs a week, which gave me either a pick up bonus, overtime, or both. Now I don't pick up shifts, since I am already working 40 hrs/wk. The paycut stinks. I never saw it coming either. That stinks. I thought it was a mistake on the last paycheck, so I broke it down to look at it, and the math checked out. It seems like a mistake again now, but it is probably not. Either way, when I go in to do some computer training today, I am going to take a closer look at it. That sucks! I picked up hours, and got a paycut! What a worthless job. Next time I go anywhere, it will be to Surgery, Trauma, and Neurology. honestly, I don't like neuro. That is paralyzed people, and people on the brink of paraylysis, or questionable nerve damage of sorts. That is really freaking depressing. "Hi, I am jen, your nurse. By the way, that cervical (neck) fracture that is being evaluated...yeah, it's broken. Walking..?.. umm, no..not so much." great. Granted I don't give the diagnosis-I would call the docs in to deliver that blow (unless it's good news). But I go in two seconds later, and get to deal with damage control. What the hell do you say to that?? "Shit happens. sorry, buddy." Either way, my odds are best on that floor. I am a trauma girl. surgery is cool. I can hack that. Neuro, I can deal. And most people who are evaluated for neuro problems don't actually have one. Plus, they would train me with cardiac monitors. That would be good. Telemetry. More learning. More experience. And telemetry is a serivice in high demand==me getting more jobs wherever I want them:) It's needed in California. And it is a step closer to the ED or something... or maybe I will just stay on the floor... or do ED nurse practitioner. Who knows. I really like ortho. I just wish it were more critical-cardiac monitors, chest tubes more often, vents. Most people are pretty stable when we get them. Which is good, but sometimes the adrenaline rush and urgency of a Sick, like actually SICK patient, is kind of fun. It twists your brain, makes you think of all your resources, and act before shit happens. It's kind of fun. I had one of those days on tuesday. My patient's epidural went bad, and then so did his blood pressure. He got a little goofy too. yeah...a narcotic overdose will do that to you. Anyway, I fixed it before he coded. I hate epidurals. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 7th, 2006
10:48 am	Well, I haven't been on here in a really long time again. So... what is new with me... i don't remember when I last wrote. I think it was after my trip to Seattle, WA. If you want to seep pictures of anything, check out eric and I on facebook. I work at a primary care clinic. I think clinics are important, and very cost effective as far as health care is concerned. But I prefer to work at a hospital. Way better. I have too many brain cells for clinic nursing. Maybe I will like it when I am sixty and can't do the hard phsyical floor work anymore. Or when I have kids and desparately need a 9-5 job. Or something. I don't know. But it's okay, I am learning a lot, and I will commit to six months. Then...we'll see. I get itchy feet...I can't stay in one place too long. Today is voting day, and thank God the campaign ads will be over tonight. I am sick of seeing them. I am going to go vote as soon as I am done with this. for anyone who wants to do last minute research on their candidates, go to "dontvote.com" or "congress.org". I wonder what would have happened to our economy if we would have put the amount of money into education as we put into iraq. If it was a tenth of that, school teaches around the nation would have fainted with joy. Think about it: Low education=poverty=crime=poor health=unemployment/uninsurance/underiinsurance=higher burden on society. Ish... so many bad attributes... Whatever... I am not president. Nor did i vote for this one. It sounds like for thanksgiving I will be road tripping it to sioux falls, sd to hang out with erics fam, and then my fam will be coming up here. So we are doing a double whammy for the holiday-there then here, and I don't know what I am going to do for xmas. I have to work. Maybe leave right after...i don't know. I hate to miss it. Mom and dad have some vacation in mid dec... i was toying with the idea of a plane ticket to somewhere... but i don't know...I need to check into that. I hope you all are doing well (Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 11th, 2006
5:16 pm	I AM BACK FROM ALASKA AND THE TRIP WAS AWESOME! (Comment on this)
Saturday, June 3rd, 2006
2:54 pm	If anyone is in sheboyan for the weekend, give me call at my cell/old house number. 612-205-1436. Jenny, if you get this, maybe I can take you out for coffee before you have to work tonight. (Comment on this)
Saturday, April 29th, 2006
10:11 am	Just as i get increasingly and increasingly frusterated Last night, I called eric and he met me at work for supper. And he brought me subway-with extra pickles. then he went out with friends, brought spare clothes for me so I could change after work, paid my entry so when I showed up I just had to tell them my name, and then bought me drinks. I woke up this morning to the smell of breakfast (okay... perhaps burning eggs) and he was outside trying to fix my bike tire. He is still working on it. Life is back to better. (Comment on this)
Thursday, August 28th, 2003
11:33 am	EMAIL PROBLEMS!!!! I don't know why, but i can't check email. I am trying to have my dad fix that, but I don't know how long it will take. This just showed up yesterday. So, SEND EMAIL TO: laac0002@umn.edu If you sent anything in the last two days, can you RESEND IT to that same address? It freaks me out that every time I try to go online, it tells me i am using an invalid password. It's like somone was using my password and then changed it on me! Eeks! Well, I am out for the day. Take care, y'all!! :) (Comment on this)
Friday, November 22nd, 2002
10:31 am	awwhh... i am so exhausted. So exhausted, so exhausted. **must drop of project **must go to rec **must study for test **hockey with boys? (Comment on this)
Thursday, September 5th, 2002
1:44 pm	life is kickin!! Hm... when I break down my schedule, it seems that I will have twenty credits. I am not stressed, rather I am proud of myself. I am taking some of these classes for kicks. I have the classes that I need in my schedule. After 12 credits, the rest are free. So, I figured, what the heck? and added a few clases that look interesting. I am liking this. I have a few weeks to drop classes, so if things get hard, adios with one or two. There are four credits that are partable. But I really like my schedule, and I am determined to get a 4.0. Now, it is not so much that I need it for the school of nursing, but want to do it for myself. This year, I am here to have a good time. I like doing things, but like to on my own behalf. Perhaps I won't play hockey this year, on a team, but will on parks. PArk hockey is heaven. Well.. park hockey with the right guys is heaven! The team thing.. can be obligatory. That word is stomach crunching. Well... I am going to play for a while, of course, and if I get sick of it, I won't pay the dues or continue. I will just pack my gear and go. I think I may need a year off. Sometimes I wonder what I could have done with athletics in my life, had I just taken it more seriously. A girl on skates is rare, and I had all the opportunities in the world to better myself. I am two or three years ahead of a lot of opening doors, but I am in a good spot. And I always thought people were kidding when they said the Philipino olympic team for speedskating-which is probably better. Lol. Well, this year is going to be a good year. I don't like thinking about sports anymore. It gets annoying and tiring and too many fake people trying to be too tough and intimdating. It's really not that cool. There are too many people that talk a lot, and say too little. "yeahh.. the good fat is the saturated kind..' shut up.. it's unsaturated, the oil, derived from plant kind. I am getting kind of tired of it and I just don't want to deal with it. Hockey is fun, but it is fun when it is played for fun. I think that is my tick. Classes are good, roomies are good, life is good, neighbors are good... yup. Life is good:) I can't believe i dont have any homework that I can do yet.. it is the third day of classes, I have 20 credits.. and I am getting a little bored. We have no phone yet (should be installed tomorrow) and nick is calling the cable guy today. Heh, good thing I like my roomies.. we get a lot of hang out time! Headed out to a bar tonight!! (Comment on this)
Sunday, August 25th, 2002
5:13 pm	READ ME. Hmm.. I wish I could write in different colors! My lj entries need some LIFE!!! They need flavor! Well, today's once a week topic came right back up agian. RACE. Not just race, but today it was an all out debate. Again. A lot of people feel really strongly on the subject of race, but like any stereotype, it only has the value that people put behind it. For me, it's a mental thing. For me, a person's identity is NOT blood, but BACKGROUND. A person's identity is shaped by where they grew up, what they know, who they are friends with, how they interact with people, what they can do and have done, what their opinions are and what they have to say. Whiteness, blackness, brownness... so what? I am brown. This is my color. This is not who I am! I don't identify with asians any more (actually usually less) than white people! And I hold the same respect to everyone else! Sometimes, and I do recognize it, color can represent stuff. It can represent backgrounds, culture, and the past. But not always. People need to LOOK at people and LISTEN to them. THAT is their identity, listen to where they are from, where they grew up, what they say and believe in. THAT is their culture! Dating, dating. Of course I know race will affect me in dating! I am not dumb! Some people care about race and some people don't. BUT. But, race is a PHENOTYPE. People care about looks, and that is old news folks. Some people prefer blonds, some brunettes. Some prefer caucasians, some prefer asians, and for some, "once you go black you never go back." Yeah, people notice skin color, but they also notice shirt color. The fact that people notice it does not mean it significantly matters. Have I thought about this subject? Of course! You guys see how often I write about it, and I don't write about it as often as it comes up. I get reminded all the time! How can anyone ignore a subject that keeps popping up in their face??? And by the reason that it comes up so often, it matters. Subjects that don't matter get dropped and forgotten. This falls from my mind like a stone in the water, and remains sunk until some groping hand fumbles across it and pulls it up to the surface. What happened when I thought about it is that I thunk myself around in a confusing knot that landed me right where I began! THE VALUE THAT RACE HOLDS IS THE VALUE THAT PEOPLE PUT BEHIND IT. It is that simple. If a person wants to notice it, they notice it. If they don't see it is there, it is not. I know people see it. That is not bad. It is not good. It is there. It is not bad until people judge it, and react. And if ever I find someone who looks at me that way how will I react? Try to BEFREIND THEM. That's right. I won't hate them and I won't be rude to them. I would try to get to like them, and get them to like me. Why? To prove them wrong, to be an exception to the rule, to show them who I am and that I am okay. And I should hope that I change their mind, or that if they are going to hate me, it will have to be for another reason. I would hope that the person meets more people from his creed that are colored, and that the person gets to know them. And befriend them. And finds more exceptions. Enough exceptions breaks the rule. This is where I stand with race. I want to cry at the amount of people that really care about this. I don't believe that people really and truly regulate who they can talk to by this matter. I believe taht because of all the friends that I have, of all the people I have met, and for all of the opinions I have heard. I don't belive that because I have met some racists and after I talk to them for a while I become an exception to the rule. Perhaps it matters to start with, but not for long. That is because people are people, and if you show anyone else the person, that is what they see. Stereotypes have the power that people put behind them. Color can be a stereotype, and i think it is worth jack shit. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, August 24th, 2002
9:52 pm	http://www.emode.com/tests/uiq/ Your IQ score is 131 This number is the result of a formula based on how many questions you answered correctly on Emode's Ultimate IQ test. The even better news is that at Emode, we've taken your IQ test one step further. During the test, you answered four different types of questions — mathematical, visual-spatial, linguistic and logical. We were able to analyze how you did on each set of those questions, which allows us to shed light on the way your brain uniquely functions. At the same time, we compared your answers with others who have taken the test, and according to the sorts of questions you got correct, we can tell your Intellectual Type is a Visual Mathematician. The first thing we can tell you about that is you have a strong ability to process visual-spatial and mathematical information. (Comment on this)
Friday, August 9th, 2002
2:53 pm	growing impatient Nick is NOT going for sure. I talked to his roommate. I am going to be late for this trip. I am waiting for two people to drop off a computer. I don't have time for htis right now!!!!!!!! I will be very glad to be gone. I have to drop off a video and make it to st pual.. in like no time whatsoever. This sucks. I am growing very very impatient. Very impatient. NO! THIS IS FAIR! I have a RIGHT to be impatient right now. Nick should be coming. He should have planned ahead. He knew about this trip a month in advance. Ah well.. At least he is being responsible and working. That is the right thing to do. I don't have time to wait for people right now. I have to be camping, and they know it. "I'll be there in a few minutes." It's has been a few minutes. About 20 or more. I have to drop off a video that is overdue. Do you think I have a friend whom I can ask to do me a small favor? Nope. I don't mind doing stuff for someone else, but now that I would really like someone to help me out... nobody. Yeah, I have a RIGHT to be impatient. This is not self centered. It would be if i did this all the time, and expected people to do things for me, help me, take me here, there, close doors for me, but NO. I am not like that. I don't think I am like that. I am getting screwed. And I have a right to be pissed about it. Shit. If those people aren't here in five minutes I am leaving. Final. (Comment on this)
Monday, August 5th, 2002
12:36 am	HI ;p (Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 31st, 2002
10:38 pm	The Silence Within The Silence Within "She slowly breathes, in and out. A daughter tenderly holds the frail old woman's hand. The silhouette of a figure is looming in the darkness of the shadows. Death silently stands by, waiting." -The Silence Within This is a poem that is in a book called The Silence Within. What do you think about it? Is it good/ok/bad? 1-10 it. I seriously want your opinions on this.. I was just thinking about this a little bit...and wondered what you guys all thought. I just want to know what you guys think of the quality of this poem. Is this something that just anyone, or lots of people can come up with? (1 Comment |Comment on this)
9:49 am	A frail old man went to live with his son, daughter-in-law, and four-year grandson. The old man's hands trembled, his eyesight was blurred, and his step faltered. The family ate together at the table. But the elderly grandfather's shaky hands and failing sight made eating difficult. Peas rolled off his spoon onto the floor. When he grasped the glass, milk spilled on the tablecloth. The son and daughter-in-law became irritated with the mess. We must do something about Grandfather," said the son. I've had enough of his spilled milk, noisy wife set a small table in the corner. There, Grandfather ate alone while the rest of the family enjoyed dinner. Since Grandfather had broken a dish or two, his food was served in a wooden bowl. When the family glanced in Grandfather's direction, sometime he had a tear in his eye as he sat alone. Still, the only words the couple had for him were sharp admonitions when he dropped a fork or spilled food. The four-year-old watched it all in silence. One evening before supper, the > > father noticed his son playing with wood scraps on > > the floor. He asked the > > child sweetly, "What are you making?" > > Just as sweetly, the boy responded, "Oh, I am > > making a little bowl for you > > and Mama to eat your food when I grow up." The > > four-year-old smiled and went back to work. The > > words so struck the parents that they were > > speechless. Then tears started to stream down their > > cheeks. Though no word was spoken, both knew what > > > > must be done. > > That evening the husband took Grandfather's hand > > and gently led him back to the family table. For the > > remainder of his days he ate every meal with the > > family. And for some reason, neither husband nor > > wife seemed to care any longer when a fork was > > dropped, milk spilled, or the tablecloth soiled. > > On a positive note, I've learned that, no matter > > what happens how bad it > > seems today, life does go on, and it will be > > better tomorrow. I've learned > > that you can tell a lot about a person by the way > > he/she handles three > > things: a rainy day, lost luggage, and tangled > > Christmas tree lights. I've > > learned that, regardless of your relationship with > > your parents, you'll miss > > them when they're gone from your life. I've > > learned that making a "living" is not the same thing > > as making a "life." I've learned that life > > sometimes gives you a second chance. I've learned > > that you shouldn't go through life with a catcher's > > mitt on both hands. You need to be able to throw > > something back. > > I've learned that if you pursue happiness, it will > > elude you. But, if you > > focus on your family, your friends, the needs of > > others, your work and doing the very best you can, > > happiness resides within you. I've learned that > > whenever I decide something with an open heart, I > > usually make the right decision. > > I've learned that even when I have pains, I don't > > have to be one. > > I've learned that every day, you should reach out > > and touch someone. > > People love that human touch -- holding hands, a > > warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back. I've > > learned that I still have a lot to learn. > > > > I've learned that you should pass this on to > > everyone you care about. > > > > I just did. Sometimes they just need a little > > something to make them smile. > > People will forget what you said ... people will > > forget what you did...but > > people will never forget how you made them feel. (Comment on this)
Monday, July 29th, 2002
3:59 pm	Funeral I was walking down the University Avenue with some friends. We were just walking down frat row, after a frat party, and in search of something else to do. We were talking about something and all in really good moods. It was a good night! I looked up and saw someone I recognized-one of my supervisors! "Oh, shit!" I freaked out. "Cross the street, quick, cross the street!" I had just started working security and if I break the law, I lose my job. I was 19, and drunk. Oh no... he might be undercover!! "Shit!" I ran to catch the other people. My supervisor looked up and saw me, "Hi Jen!" Ohhhhhh Shit... "Hi," I responded. He came over. "Hey how are you doing? How is your night going? Oh hey, xxxx, whats up?" Oh. He's not undercover. And I guess we know the same people. Hahahaha...my bad! What a relief! We ended up talking for a while, and his group and my group kinda meshed together. I don't know how long we stood around talking and having a good time. My friend grabbed my arm, "Jenny, that's the guy that I was telling you about." "What guy?" and I turned around. She pointed him out as he was walking past, alone. Eih.. he was ok. Frankly, I didn't think he was that cute. "Go talk to him!" I urged. "No, I can't what would I say?" "I don't know." The guy walked past us. My supervisor was standing close enough, and apparently close enough to hear our conversation. He ran off after the guy, they stopped to talk, and both came back. "Hey this is... what's your name again...?" Says my sup to introduce this guy. He says his name, and we introduced ourselves. He and my frined started talking. I just thought this was hilarious. The supervisor, who I was afriad would bust and fire me, was talkative, fun, cool, and he had run after this guy that he heard my friend say was hot, brought the guy back with him, and integrated him into the group!! This supervisor was awesome! He even hooked my friend up! What a cool guy! My friend and that guy hooked up for a while too! Today was (Comment on this)
Friday, July 26th, 2002
9:09 pm	Boring update The ghetto pad is gone!!! Perhaps that is all for the bette. Nick asked if I wanted to live with him and another guy this year. So I told him irina and I would be up for it! He's totally cool and really fun, so this will work out just great. More people = more diversions, more action, and just more... social support I guess. I love it! This guy will be a blast to live with, and I hope his friend will be the same. So now begins the search for a 4 br apt. I think I aced my history exam today! Fuck yeah1 That feels so good walking out of class knowing that I did well on an exam! That happens so rarely, but it will have to happen more often. It feels so worth the studying and the effort and there is the satisfaction of knowing i did well. It's not an 'eih' test, it's an wheeew! wow. Test. That feels good. (I just thought I would brag for a bit-sorry people!) I hope people aren't writing a lot lately cuz they are going out and having a blast-and creating a bunch of interesting stuff to type on lj when they get the chance! And responding to the last posting that I had..or the one before.. the poem one. Gnight! and Have fun all!! (Comment on this)
Thursday, July 25th, 2002
9:07 pm	Farewell to what never was... The girl was going to move out of our Green Ghetto Pad. There were two one bedroom apartments. Some guys were interested in one. We wanted one. Some people had moved out, and a girl was moving out of the other. And the bitch decided to stay there. Problem. Three people. Two apartments. She lives there, and gets preference. The guys beat us to the app, and all they need to do is sign the damn lease. Irina and I fall of off cloud nine and smash into ground zero. The dreams of The Green Ghetto Pad have come crumbling down. (1 Comment |Comment on this)